Trying to keep a positive attitude.
I know its best to stay up beat and positive when you have any disease, but sometimes it is just really, really hard to do that. Every now and then when I get to feeling blue about my RA I start asking myself ”Why Me!”
I think this usually comes about when I let myself get too fatigued and don’t take the time to rest my body, along with a bunch of back to back bad nights sleep. Everything hurts from the feet on up. I have a couple of Nodules on the bottom and side of my right foot, they start hurting and I being limping more which goes to my hip then my back and neck. Now I’m miserable and my hands are stiff and I have trouble holding on to things. I must look like I’m 100 years old, lord knows I feel terrible.
After feeling like this day in and day out its hard not to get down about it. The problem I have is that I am usually so positive that when I hit bottom like this its really difficult to pull the boot straps up and climb out of the hole. I know I can and will but in the meantime it just sucks and I wonder why did I have to be so lucky to get RA in the first place and how?
We were Christmas shopping yesterday and I saw a women using an electric chair to get around the store. I can’t help but think Oh My Good is that my future? and I get pissed off and think Why Me! I have a new appreciation for what disabled people go through everyday,
When we go shopping I try to park some distance from the store as I know its better to walk further even with some discomfort just keep the joints moving. Handicapped Parking stalls are for those who really need them and I hope I never need one. I get really pissed off when I see some one without a permit or a disability using one of these few too spaces and I feel like yelling at them.
I know this post is kinda rambling but its what's been on my mind this morning. That and WHY ME.
